= Rock My World =

After driving session at BBDC, I headed to board a bus at the opposite bus stand. Didn't bother to take note of the bus number till I get near to the door step, then I realised that I was queuing for bus 188. Since bus 187 still did not come, I decided to take a longer route home and that is to stop by the bus stop opposite his house.

Didn't know I will get melancholy until I alighted at his bus stop, facing his HDB block. Flashes of memory like snapshots of photograph skip through my head. I had a sudden wistful thought that if he could appear somewhere near for me to see whether he has fend himself well. Past conversations with him at the bus-stop strike hard on me, conversations that are still so fresh and recent to me that I can't believe we are already over. The opinions and ideas that we once shared at the bus-stop, the futile attempts of carrying him over my back, the silly dances that I once did to make him laugh and serious talk of the future hits me hard. I still can't kick off the habitual urge to pour my heart to him. The non-stop phone calls that he used to give me and I took it for granted. I missed all of it.

I can't help but feel sickly terrible at that moment, when I recalled that we clicked so well. We clicked so well but I chosed to turn away from him nonchalently, as deep in my heart I know clearly that he is a good friend to me. I am sorry for hurting him so much, and I missed him.